Oops, sorry for the delay – coming off from the COVID quarantine and heading right into a last minute decision to buy a house and move this summer. 2020 is truly the craziest.
“We’re 5 days past the day we landed in the hospital with Oaklee. It is crazy and emotional and stressful…”
Just over two weeks past the diagnosis of an echogenic bowel in our son, we’d already found peace in the unknown there. We’d gone through the same phases of shock we’d been through beginning the day we landed in the hospital with our daughter when they told us everything that would probably be wrong with her if she were born that day.
Shock, grieving, mourning, depression, acceptance. We felt all the feels.
When it comes down to it, though, here’s our thing about “disabilities”. We believe in a purposeful God. If God had wanted my daughter to be blind, for example, like the doctors told us she probably would be, he would have done that. And we would have survived. We would have figured out how to do life with a blind child. Would it have been easy? My guess is no.
And if God wanted our son to be “abnormal”, we would figure out how to do life with whatever that might look like, too. Would that be easy? Probably not.
But by the 21st of June, we’d entered into new territory. I was living at home in a stage of pregnancy where I’d lived in the hospital last time. Though I probably didn’t need to, I felt like a time bomb once again. But this time, I wasn’t down the hall from the nurses and doctors who could help me. I was a 25 minute drive away. With our daughter, I went into labor for my first time at 22 weeks and 6 days. The doctors and nurses reversed it 5 times before I delivered my daughter on the 6th time.
If I went into labor now, with my son, what could be done? What would it look like? The whole point of only carrying to 36 weeks instead of 40 was so that my body wouldn’t have to go into labor and risk a uteran rupture on account of my previous classical cesarean section. How fast would things move? Would I be ok? Would my baby be ok? Is it ok for me to just be living at home right now?
In the stats:
Gestational Age: 23 weeks, 4 days
Doctor’s Appointments: 7
Makena Injections: 7